i feel like it has been awhile since i have written anything in a creative process. my mind has been bogged down with school work, work, life in movement. i have reached for my paper and pen over and over but then stopping myself wondering if i have anything to say and realizing i do but where do i start. i have drafts and drafts of almost finished posts until i become to tired to finish and allowing my mind to wonder quicker than my fingers can keep up. i am stretching and trying, i do crave writing-i just realize it is going to take me a little bit to get back into again.
i have moved, i was at my last place for almost two years. that is quite an accomplishment for me. i am now staying with friends and trying to finish up this semester at school. picking up and going is constantly on my mind. as soon as i feel settled in one place i start getting this egging notion to start looking for somewhere else. i have grown to love ogden and utah these last 9 years but i have been dreaming of being out on the road somewhere anywhere new. a new setting to start a new chapter in my life, possibly another charming mountain town, possibly a beach town, maybe even a farm life for a time. i want a place to set up roots for myself something to go back to. i feel as if i am in constant search for home. i find it for a time until i realize that there is so much more that i haven’t seen or learned yet.
i switched jobs as well. i worked in a little cafe for a little time and loved it. i miss it has much as i hate to admit. i was in my element there. it was comfortable so i decided to work in a bar instead. now i am learning about craft beer, what the main ingredients are, a little of the history of beer, and the process of making beer now. i am enjoying myself there i get to be my flirtatious self a little more but from a safe distance. although i am always a flirt when there is a counter in-between. it keeps me moving and entertained so i don’t have to think so much or at least what i don’t want to think about.
and now my mind is wondering and as i have said before my fingers can’t keep up the pace.
this was fun, we should do this again….soon.