Drafted early June 2022. Excerpt I wrote this out right after I had been dating someone a second go at it and as all long distance happen a phone call that ended the relationship.
Dating is hard and just seems to get even more complicated as we get older and that’s not even including adding in being a flight attendant.
Or perhaps that is just the excuse… me being a flight attendant. Always gone never at home.. it certainly adds an extra layer to it but I also know it’s what we put into it as well.
It’s been almost a decade since my divorce… that’s 9 years of first dates, first kisses, promises of calling, being stood up and standing others up… of one year long cross country relationship, of-is this isn’t this something, of awkward non dates that seems like a date.. of never getting it quite right.
I wish this one didn’t have to hurt as much and yet it does.
And here I am again wondering if maybe those years of dreaming of some distant family I believed was in the cards was all a distraction. All those years of dreaming of the dream man was in fact a smoke and mirrors.
Not all of us are meant to be with someone.. perhaps we are meant for something else that is better for us.
Jess
JessicaRaye 
At times it can be hard to see, but I truly believe we always end up where we’re supposed to be.
I think so too. Just the expectance that it will probably look different than what we expected and will be different for all of us.
It’s such a journey. Thank you Lyssy for the comments and likes.
Like Lyssy said, we end up where we are supposed to be. How we get there may be a long frustrating road with ups and downs along the way but we get there. Remember each is a stepping stone in our journey. We just have to embrace each one for what it is.