Yesterday I was riding down from my bank to kafe merc and for a moment I couldn't remember the date. Does it really matter at this point? This time of the year always gives me time for pause. More than just the fact that the weather is slowly shifting or the leaves starting to change … Continue reading Three years
I wrote a post a year and a half ago about my very personal difficulties in my marriage stemming from sex. During those years I had vaginisum but didn't know there was a name to it, that there were/are others who had the same problem as I did. Due to the shame and lack of … Continue reading Recovering from Vaginismus
i find myself going back and forth of writing and then deleting, i start out with a letter then delete, i try to create a poem then delete. i sit back trying to figure out what it is that i feel. i search facebook looking, knowing i won't find him there. i search anyways, hoping … Continue reading searching
Draft-1/28/16 I got home earlier yesterday then everyone else it was way to quiet. I wasn't expecting it so I kept my music on my iPod and heated up my leftovers, washed a few dishes and then started eating by myself. As I sat there at the chair my thoughts crept to earlier in the … Continue reading Faith, belief, religion?
im finally starting to warm up from my walk home tonight. Tuesday's are generally a little bit longer of a shift, closing followed by poetry and pho. It's my date night for myself. Reflecting, letting the loneliness settle in until it lifts and slowly I feel something else...volunerablity. I feel the most volunerablity when I … Continue reading thoughts over pho
" peace and harmony, love and joy surround and indwell in me. i am secure and safe, i am safe." i repeat this to myself over, over and over again. continually throughout the day, its the first thing i say to myself in the morning, its what i repeat while i am walking to work, … Continue reading my mantra
my mind has been wondering lately and i haven't been able to keep up with everything that needs to be done. i had a bit of a breakdown a month ago, i was doing way too much for myself. adding everything i thought i could fill into my calendar. nothing was off limits to me. … Continue reading Eczema and Heartbreak
it's rained 15 days straight here in utah. i've loved all of this over-casted, snowcapped mountains, and chilly weather. somedays it will rain not stop with heavy rain drops and other times its on and off or it will rain in the morning or the evening. it's kinda like living on the coast somewhere or … Continue reading rain storms
This post is on a very sensitive matter dealing with sex. possible triggers for those who have been raped, molested. if you have young children who are not ready for these sensitive topics please either have them leave the room or wait to read later. comments are of course encouraged but please be kind-comments will … Continue reading my story….
"you're never to old and it's always the perfect time" that is my new phrase these days, something that has taken me to fully understand and to let go of fears and beliefs that you have to do things in a certain pattern and system or everything is just wrong and the world will come … Continue reading Never too late!