Draft I've been having a difficult time trying to write anything down, I have been finding more ways to distract myself claiming that I have been opening myself up for creative thought processing. There is only so much hiking and exploration in the name of creativity till you realize that nothing is getting written down. … Continue reading Expectations and Reality
Personal Growth
A short stop in Merietta, Ohio
On our way to Hendersonville, NC from my hometown of Ashland, Ohio, Jordan and I took a pit stop in Merietta, Ohio. We had time to grab a bite to eat, grab coffee and stroll around for a bit. I mention Merietta, because one it's an adorable cozy town situated at the edge of the … Continue reading A short stop in Merietta, Ohio
Three years
Yesterday I was riding down from my bank to kafe merc and for a moment I couldn't remember the date. Does it really matter at this point? This time of the year always gives me time for pause. More than just the fact that the weather is slowly shifting or the leaves starting to change … Continue reading Three years
Recovering from Vaginismus
I wrote a post a year and a half ago about my very personal difficulties in my marriage stemming from sex. During those years I had vaginisum but didn't know there was a name to it, that there were/are others who had the same problem as I did. Due to the shame and lack of … Continue reading Recovering from Vaginismus
searching
i find myself going back and forth of writing and then deleting, i start out with a letter then delete, i try to create a poem then delete. i sit back trying to figure out what it is that i feel. i search facebook looking, knowing i won't find him there. i search anyways, hoping … Continue reading searching
Faith, belief, religion?
Draft-1/28/16 I got home earlier yesterday then everyone else it was way to quiet. I wasn't expecting it so I kept my music on my iPod and heated up my leftovers, washed a few dishes and then started eating by myself. As I sat there at the chair my thoughts crept to earlier in the … Continue reading Faith, belief, religion?
thoughts over pho
im finally starting to warm up from my walk home tonight. Tuesday's are generally a little bit longer of a shift, closing followed by poetry and pho. It's my date night for myself. Reflecting, letting the loneliness settle in until it lifts and slowly I feel something else...volunerablity. I feel the most volunerablity when I … Continue reading thoughts over pho
my mantra
" peace and harmony, love and joy surround and indwell in me. i am secure and safe, i am safe." i repeat this to myself over, over and over again. continually throughout the day, its the first thing i say to myself in the morning, its what i repeat while i am walking to work, … Continue reading my mantra
Eczema and Heartbreak
my mind has been wondering lately and i haven't been able to keep up with everything that needs to be done. i had a bit of a breakdown a month ago, i was doing way too much for myself. adding everything i thought i could fill into my calendar. nothing was off limits to me. … Continue reading Eczema and Heartbreak
rain storms
it's rained 15 days straight here in utah. i've loved all of this over-casted, snowcapped mountains, and chilly weather. somedays it will rain not stop with heavy rain drops and other times its on and off or it will rain in the morning or the evening. it's kinda like living on the coast somewhere or … Continue reading rain storms
